It is Just Too Good to be True....

Sunday, January 21, 2007

learn to leave the past in the past
and never let the past ruin the present
however, there are times tat u thought u manage to do tat
only to realise its back here again
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i had always thought tat i manage to control the past
as in not letting the past ruin me
i guess im wrong
the past has ruin a part of me

use to like a guy who clearly doesnt like me back
though its the part tat he doesnt like me back tat hurt
but the way people around him react
im not the kind of person who feels tat whoever i like must like me back
cause i dun like forcing
cause forcing is bad

anyway
a year after tat i was recovered
though at times when i was reminded it would still hurt
then last year everything changes
and it is for the better

i was enjoying the company of my class
my close friends like nithya, sherril, tarshi and surprisingly oscar
outside friends like hazzie and nad too
of course not forgetting my family

everything went well and im starting to be myself
and being myself was the great thing i felt
the mention of him no longer effects
but rather makes me laugh when i think back

it was only a few weeks back i realise
tat im not really back to who i am
went out with tania to east coast for fun
and sit down by the beach to have a relaxation time

did some talking and some thinking
that's when i realise that a part of me is hiding
i was trying my best not to like someone
rather forcing myself not to like someone

tat time then i realise why is that so
cause not tat i enjoy freedom
but i was afraid of what would happen
afraid tat the past would repeat

saw the guy tat i think i like
every single day when i work alright
he would walk past my workplace
as its nearby there he works

try to avoid him as much as i can
but he saved someone makes me fall harder
wats more my bosses like him too
and i guess he likes them too

he talk to me not once but twice
but not even once i say a word
just nodded and shook my head as an answer
then felt sad and regret after tat

now still avoiding to keep myself safe
cause seeing my friends hurt make me feel unsafe
plus not only tat but the past too
reminded tat i was once hurt and felt so blue

hid myself away
make myself busy
its slightly working

wishing for my friends to help me up
cheer me up
and pick myself up
as tats all i've got

i once wished upon;